You Can’t Always Get What You Want

I have dreamed of having a screened-in porch for years.  I was told by three different contractors that we could not put one where I desired at the back of our house for architectural reasons.  I was bummed, but I settled on creating a patio in that same space.  I wanted it to be a beautiful, relaxing retreat while at the same time being a place to hang out with family and friends.  

Last fall my patio was built and I got new furniture to make the place cozy and inviting.  I was completely in love.  I was able to have a few friends over for drinks and conversation one night before the weather turned too cold.  I was excited at the prospect of late summer nights filled with laughter, food, and wine with my friends.  I was also thrilled for my kids to have a place to hang with their friends.  Now due to the pandemic, the patio basically sits there lacking merriment.

I miss cookouts and gatherings with my friends, their spouses and their kids.  That was our norm on weekends during the summer.  We would hang out until the mosquitoes finally chased us inside.

I have learned that my introverted self likes having this space all to myself.  I enjoy having this comfortable haven to write, read, daydream, pray, and nap.  It gives me room to breathe and think without three other people right under my nose like they are in the house.  To be honest, I am tired of my husband and kids being home all the time.  I like having a little time alone without others cluttering our home with noise and activity.  Having this extra room outdoors, has been a wonderful escape for me.  

It is funny how the pandemic has simultaneously made me miss being with my friends and miss being alone.  I guess I need a balance of both in my life and right now I have neither.  I need to be grateful for my beautiful outdoor space and the joy that it currently brings me while I long for days of sunshine and sitting together in the company of friends and family.  I am truly blessed to have so much, including the patio my heart has desired for years.  “The thankful heart opens our eyes to a multitude of blessings that continually surround us.”–James E. Faust  “A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a broken spirit saps a person’s strength.”–Proverbs 17:22

3 thoughts on “You Can’t Always Get What You Want

  1. Great blog. We all need time for ourselves now and then but are grateful when we do get to see others during this pandemic. I know that I do. Keep up the good writing. Love you, Mom


  2. Missing family and friends being around is something we have gotten use to but I want everything to be normal again.


  3. Life is forever changed now ……….. most of the time I think that some new “normal” is going to emerge with us at the end of this pandemic. Perhaps this normal will include both newly discovered joys as well as old things we’ve really missed ……….. a new and better life’s path free of the pre-pandemic things that are better left behind.


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